The other day our favourite aunt, Laurie, asked what are you waiting for?
What am I waiting for?
What *am* I waiting for?
Heck, I dunno?
What do I want? Umm, to knit and spin yarn (mebbe in the opposite order), to make pretty colours (ie dye yarn), to share the yarny love around (hopefully earning enough to cover costs and buy more stuff to spin and/or dye), ride my bike (simply for the joy of riding rather than to get places like I mostly do at present), to find something that my brain finds challenging and fascinating.
(A beautiful CVM fleece from a lovely lady in Colorado - Myrtle of Black Pines Sheep)
Why am I waiting for any of these things? Well the yarn I spun last week is being knitted into a gift so I guess I am doing one of these things. I'm not dyeing yarn at present cos I don't have a lot to dye and I have not worked out a good way to dye the yarn yet as the kitchen in our apartment is teensy and our laundry lacks necessary laundry things (like a tub and extra power points) and putting a microwave out on the back patio seems odd (and I need a 3 point extension lead, not the two point one I have). Plus I need more dyes. Plus, and more to the point, I am not allowed to work here and I am guessing that dyeing yarn as a hobby and selling it will be considered working. Same with spinning up some of the fleece I have.
Ah, excuses, excuses. Why am I not going out and finding volunteer work to occupy me? Am I waiting for the sky to fall on me again? Or am I waiting for something to fall into my lap? I do have a tendency to think I am in a certain place to achieve a certain purpose but what that purpose is I have no idea!
One of the things I've been thinking a bit about recently is public transport. Another is bikes, Pushbikes. Bicycles, not motorbikes. A couple of weeks ago Nathan and I went to a VTA (local road and public transit authority) info and community consultation night. It made me think a little more. Do I want to find work in such an environment?
Or do I want to use my knowledge of biomedical science? I am trained as I scientist, I have a PhD in physiology and anatomy. There are plenty of biotech places here in Silly Valley. I am reasonably good at digging up info and taking scientific stuff and regurgitating it for an audience.
How about my interest in ecology and living things? The environment? Climate change?
Maybe I am being a housewife simply cos I am overwhelmed with choices and possible ways to go.
There are days when I wish I was just plain average. But I am not, and some days I think I should be out there, trying to make a difference, like I have some sort of obligation to society cos I was given a brain with a little more intelligence than some people have. I'm no rocket scientist and I won't be the person to find a cure for cancer but maybe I can contribute something.
For those who want a little knitting and have survived this far, here's a little taste of a current project:
Looks like a skirt or something, doesn't it? But it isn't! It is almost finished - it's blocked and needs to be seamed. Then it will be finished! It only took about 9 days to get done, particularly after I finished my previous obsession.
Plus some links - like why the flu virus is associated with winter, and happiness is somewhat genetic.